BIG CHANGES by Zay

It's been awhile since I've last blogged, but there have been some VERY big changes going on. Today is Cortney's wedding day...and I found out some very big news last week, the day before my 28th birthday.

I hadn't been feeling very well all week, I was extremely nauseous and things that I used to love, (like coffee) had suddenly become disgusting. I was very thirsty and my boobs hurt so bad I couldn't sleep. I figured I had a virus and was having PMS symptoms...but I did have a nagging suspicion that it could be something else. I was planning on going out and having some cocktails for my bday, and decided I may want to see what's up, JUST IN CASE...turns out, I'm pregnant! I took a test at school on Thursday, then on Friday I went to the Dr. to confirm it. I am 5 weeks and 3 days right now, and although it's SUPER early, I have a hard time keeping secrets and want to share this journey.

Right now the baby is the size of an orange seed, looks like a tadpole, and has a heartbeat. So far, I've been very unhealthy. I have only wanted Taco Bell and Whataburger, but thankfully, those are starting to gross me out and broccoli and asparagus are sounding a lot more appealing. I've only thrown up once, my main issue is smells. Everything stinks! My mouth is also super dry, I constantly have ice water on hand, and my skin is really dry too--aveeno lotion is my new best friend. My moods are terrible--thank goodness Seth is a nice guy--and I am SOOOO tired all of the time.

The tadpole is already extremely spoiled, it has gotten a folding changing pad, towels and rags, and two little hats. The needle test said girl, so hopefully it's right because its gifts are pretty girly.

I can't wait to fill you in more, as my body continues to change. I'm hoping to make sure this is a fit pregnancy, so anything I try I will blog about! Any suggestions are gladly appreciated.

Update by: Zayle

So I said I needed accountability, but I've been stinking at posting! This weekend I ate much healthier, not so much on the plan, but not a lot of fried junk food. My body still isn't ready to go too extreme, it feels exhausted, and I think a lot of it has to do with me over-working it. Now I've kinda hit this wall where working out sounds horrible. BUT I still have been going to bootcamp, as a matter of fact I have a date with all my ladies today at 4:15. I am down two pounds to 110.6, though, so I guess I've been doing something right.

Yesterday for my meals I had: a think thin bar for breakfast, a blueberry spinach salad w/ balsamic dressing for lunch, egg whites and a half of a banana with 2 teaspoons peanut butter for an afternoon snack, and a turkey burger patty, topped with an egg and avocado. I have some pics of my afternoon snack and dinner (the dinner picture looks absolutely disgusting, but it was yummy!!!)

Today I have been extra hungry, and since I have bootcamp this afternoon, I've kinda had mini meals throughout the day to help with any energy slumps. Breakfast was a think thin bar (my friend/beach body coach said I could count this as a protein, and since it has 22 grams of carbs, I'm counting it as a carb too), Lunch was another think thin bar (I was lazy this morning), My blue container (or fat) was nuts, and I am now eating a blueberry spinach salad with balsamic dressing. 

I have a rotisserie chicken in the fridge that I plan to use for dinner tonight, although I'm unsure as to what I'm going to make. Definitely something easy, as I'm exhausted, and as scary as our new netflix show is--'The Following'--I'm ready for some more binge watching, I'm hooked! 

Needing Accountability...By: Zay

So I am sucking at eating healthy! Thank goodness bootcamp started this week, or most likely I would be sucking at working out too. Every time I go to start my 21 day fix, I somehow end up making up excuses for myself. I'm not sure what it is and why I'm going after hamburgers and onion rings every night, but it isn't healthy and I'm finding that I'm self destructing---and back to the binging life again. Of course eating disorders are something you never overcome, and I'm not sure why I'm doing this now? Perhaps I'm stressed--well I know I am--but it's not healthy. I am purposely sabotaging everything I do. Maybe it has a lot to do with the wedding coming up? I've been married before and it didn't work out, I don't want that to happen again. It's scary! But with Seth, I do believe I've found the love of my life, and I guess I just think I don't deserve that. My little counselor self has been trying to put the pieces together, and figure out why I'm doing what I'm doing...but for now, I need accountability. I'm re-starting the 21 day fix tomorrow, (and already in my head I'm thinking WAIT, I may want chick-fil-a, or whataburger tomorrow...maybe I should hold off until Sunday, but no!) I'm ending this cycle. I will be blogging everyday about what I eat and what workouts I do--and how much I hate it or love it...and will give weekly results. Maybe accomplishing something will give me some added confidence, that I so desperately need right now. As for my stats right now, I am 112.6 pounds...surprised I haven't gained anymore weight, but I think my added muscle has definitely helped out!!!

So here's to accountability!!! Before pics...meals...and workout info to come!!!

MIA...by: Zayle

Grad school sucks! Or it did last week. It was the first time that I actually struggled with a class in Grad school, which I'm sure has something to do with me saying how easy it was before. Last week I was cramming, and honestly had no time for anything else but sleep...so I have definitely been a terrible blogger! So where to begin???

I halfway started the 21 day fix last week...why halfway? Well, one of the DVDs had a huge gash in it and would stop working halfway through my workouts...& my eating WAS NOT on point! I did a lot of stress eating, and quick fast food meals, as I was working on college work. So yesterday started my real 'first day' of the diet. That means if I do three rounds, my last day will be the day before the wedding--works out perfectly!

Even though my DVD didn't work so well, I still was dying during the workouts...honestly I was happy when they would freeze up, they were killer!!! Thank goodness I've been going to bootcamp or else I'm positive I wouldn't have been able to walk last week. My mom just started Body Beast, so I'm excited to compare results...and once I'm done with 21 day fix, give that workout a shot.

So as far as what else I've been doing...homework (thank goodness I have a week off)...and that's about it! I didn't even get netflix in last week :-(. I did, however, finally get to meet Seth's best friend. He came over Saturday night and we had an absolute blast! We ended up staying up until 4 am (WHAT?! my bedtime is usually around 8!)...I obviously forgot that I'm an about to be 28 year old, because I'm still regretting that decision. #zombiemode

I got all my engagement prints yesterday, so I'm excited to share those once I can get them scanned onto the computer. I do have one now to share that I took from my phone yesterday.

So Happy Wednesday...It's officially 9 days until the big 2-8! This week is all about being as healthy as possible and working off all the Whataburger and Taco Bell last week.